i'm officially no longer a student today. parting is a part of life, and i've come to accept it years ago. no matter how strongly i felt against it, time has always manged to soften the impact of such emotions on myself. as we grow older and more accustomed to such a cycle of parting, we learn to deal with it.

watching the concert today was a joy. things close to our hearts makes us laugh and i sure had a good laugh. the maths teachers were damn cool! i wish i had everything on video. their performance would've been a classic. all the best wishes we've got today especially those from the teachers made me felt loved in a sense. for the very first time, there was really this family kind of feeling. everyone full of concern for the rest. its sad it had to come on the last day.

last - was the word we hang ard our mouth( as the chinese saying goes) on the last day. we greeted our teacher the last time, sang the school song for the last time. had pe for the last time. doing alot of other things for the last time. i was talking about this day months ago.. and heaven seems to be fast forwarding the days. its here alr...

i'll miss this place that i happened to come across during a period in my life.

move along...

I have led a life of mediocrity. Its a life filled with sparks, but sparks not enough to glow. Up till now, I was contented. But for everyone, there comes a time when fairy tales no longer existed and every choice you made could eventually affect how the next few decades of your life is going to be. For me, i've seen how my mediocrity has set me panicking.

I was once a person who prefers to be somewhere near the ordinary, be an average joe. i remember my teacher once told me," you are the only few in class who is both street and academic smart. you'll go far". Again i stayed mediocre throughout sec sch and jc.

How i wished i had the desire to push myself all the way right from the start. what would i have become then? i have seen how much opportunity i've lost. even though i'm taking only 3 subs now, i would have like to take F maths, maths S and chem S. It may seems like i'm looking beyond what i can do. But somehow, i feel I can if i really wanted to.as for scholarships, i nv once thought in my life that i'll be eligible and so the tot of getting it naturally did not exist. the feeling now is different. I went to look at the private scholarships for offer, and there are definitely a few i'm interested. but all of their requirements stated " at least one S paper " i was like, d*mn!

the class i'm in now is a very fun class however, we're not up there in terms of studies. our teachers are all worrying for us, and the look on their faces tells me its serious anxiety. they all hoped we could at least get a C for their subject, considering all the O's and the E's we're getting now. i feel its too low a target to set for myself. i'm still aiming for A A A. all together i need to jump a total of 10 grades for all 3 subs !!! haha, i dont feel its impossible. to a certain extent,a simple life is soothing but i do need to step out of this mediocrity. the important thing is, i know i can do it with a little bit of luck. i hope all my friends are feeling the same way too. rise up to the occasion. chem engineering here i come!

i'm not praying for a miracle, i'm working one right now.

'do not disturb' ...

had our usual routine yesterday. morning went to buy food for bbq then after tt go play soccer.the sky wasnt looking too good but we played nonetheless. it was sure tiring. . . but every time we played i just really enjoyed myself. evening had our bbq, alison who normally does the cooking had food poisioning. together with the ultra strong fire that they started, food started getting burnt and dried. we still ate them la... melvin brought liquor along. haha.. ah sai dont drink. discipline. even oon drank~ we sat ard and started chatting till the stars appear. this is the future i foresee. chatting over a few cups of drinks. some even said next time our bbq will more likely be a family bbq with kids and wives. hopefully the bachelor term could have the exact opp effect on everyone. watching everyone blog bout this at the end of the day, i'm sure they felt the same way as i do. we all had fun reliving the good ol' days.

we're growing up . . .