saturday
got the seven aside tournament in sch against some sec sch. at first everything started well, i scored a nice header goal (my maiden header goal) n the everyone was focus n stuff. after tt everything seems so messy ... grR. my miscommunication with yen hao meant i swinged my leg straight at his leg n he had swollen heel n me a swollen ankle =/ i also started to get really bad tempered but i guess tts me when i'm playing. i din played too well either.. but who cares. after tt , due to the swollen ankle i decided to go queensway inside of chee's house. went walk ard lo , bought some stuff for my ab camp on mon. ended the day on a high note.

sunday
ystday juz had a farewell lunch for wans who will be leaving for 1 month. take care wans... the 7 of us (without adib) went swensens' for lunch. after tt juz walk ard and some went to catch monster-in-law. its a pretty hilarious n the first show i've watched in months, so yeah , it felt nice.

then now i'm blogging like, mins be4 i leave for camp. dreading it like ever be4. got so much stuff to bring. its gonna be one hell of a week. 5 days also long time la... no hp no com. cut off all connections with the world ah. then wan also going for soooooo long, 1 whole month tt is. its gonna be so long be4 she comes back. hmmm, better go prepare le, wun wan to be late with patrick lim n clement cheng as camp commanders. take care everyone... especially.

things have settled, but it still isn't looking up for me. would u miss me like i do ?

we dun always get wat we wan ... but sometimes in life u know u really wished to have tt. so how ?? its juz a look n i know its not meant to be mine ... i'm outta it. can only admire from afar.. nowhere near. i've been struggling with myself, will u be there to release the struggle?


u say i dunno ur pain , i know and mayb a few times more... but who is there for me ?? loneliness is my friend, emptiness is my pal , helplessnesss is my soul. wat am i supposed to do ? got no where to run , got no where to hide.

*i'm not the one, ur heart is missing*

so long nv write again le, juz doesn't have the mood to update so often like last time. hai, wasn't a v nice week , n definitely a terrible end to the week. referring to friday the 13th tt is ... nv used to believe tt little unlucky myth, but mayb i juz had the chance to withness its power. everything juz got screwed up that day.


din go for the sg's cricket club thing for trial, was lazy to do so .. also dunno wan anotz, not exactly a v lucrative club but mayb this is the level where i should expose myself to to improve myself n hope next yr aj wun be knocked out so fast again. my maths common test was alaso like shit too la, dunno y i tuition for, still feel so conked out in the test. guess i'll do badly again la...grR. lagging behind in tutorials again ...


then ystday alot of things happened. like mass depression ... one by one all become so sad. supposed to be a nice outing at town de. then the whole "pentagon" thing started to sets in ... after go home worse.. bombarded by reality. i hopes she's ok , must have been damn sad. all of us reach home le , she's still out alone at her house's playground. argh... dun hurt urself. its a nv ending pentagon , when all ends meet, we're going in circles.


u dun know that , when u tears , ppl get hurt.

hey! here i am again! yay* this week so far has been v fulfilling for me ~ mon was public holiday , got nowhere to go also so i went with boon n his two other friends to do hw. well , not exactly as productive as a 6 hours studying time should be but i still managed to complete like 3 tutorials which is gd. then we go cut hair together also... ya, felt so relaxed after the work done...


hmmm, then back to ystday , went for recre . played at the hockey D , n boy it was fun ! every team only the girls can score , so its like a crazy hectic havoc kinda match la, but my team got 3 girls ma , then we kept winning. me boon qiu hong jolene plus fiona~ winning team formula. she wasn't on my team la , but still fun la. heez... slide once against the rubber top , alamak. abrasion ! hurts sia...


then today was wanling's birthday , went with them to eat marche. they damn crappy la. we felt abit left out at first la , but slowly slowly blend in together with them. watching the way they behaved n talk , i was thinking, mayb if i had gone to an all guys sch i would be a diff me ? most of the girls there today were from girls sch la , they are just so outgoing n friendly n stuff quite diff from a co-ed sch girl. they are v "themselves" with a unique identity. their sch culture also v much diff from us... can say they are more matured thinking than most of us. yeah, but my sec sch friends still rocks la!


tml also going down for soccer again. thankfully got all these recre tt has been keeping me bz , otherwise the post tournament elimination wouldn't have been gotten over so quickly. this sat also cant go play with bachelor they all le, got the soccer 7 aside tournament organised by the singapore cricket club , played at padang. sounds rather fun to me ah~ hope we can get some consolation from here ! =) hmmm, ok la, abit tired le, go take a rest liaoz! take care all! ...

ah, our vball team din go into semis, heard its the first time in 8 yrs they din get into finals, wat amazing statistics. soccer would be glad to go to sec round, hahaz, diff standard , diff expectation. whole sch like sank into mini depression , we had so much hopes for vball but nvm nth we say would make them feel better juz like how i felt .


n we juz had our sports day like 2 days ago ? ahahz, pretty fun. the highlight was the cheerleading part , it was really great! especially the jaguar house ppl though they din win~ my house cougar de , hahaz, sad to say its the lousiest but i think they enjoyed the process . saw jaguar girls crying when they nv win. they put in alot of effort lo, stayed back everyday for practice n got some scandals n stuff but overall v well done!


then ystday had a v long day , went for the aj idol. had a damn tiring lesson in the morning . then afternoon go find lp accompany her for the afternoon since both of us got nth to do. she's damn crapping, fun girl =) after tt go play soccer at hockey D awhile n we went to aj idol together. well, the finals performance din disappoint us la, it was gd seriously! especially caryn ( not sure of spelling) n hazlami , top class singers no doubt. i was abit tired so wasn't quite in the same wavelength as the atmosphere ard me. but i enjoyed my self .


the ending to the day wasn't as beautiful as how it had went, but its still a v v v nice day for me. thx! later going to play soccer with them le, can finally play to my hearts' content as i'm out of the tournament ~duh. tts all i'm writing ba, hope my sch bball can win n snatch some glory back for us! bb! cya guys...

stepping stone or tripping stone ??