studied for but 3 hrs ystday, including the time i spent stoning, looking at the views outside starbucks. it felt gd again, doing something i am in control of, unlike my life now. i've just kick started my car engine, gf . ha... starting slowly but surely.

there was this funny incident when an uncle came into starbucks, went to the counter n ordered , "kopi-o ji puay". which means a cup of coffee. the staff was abit stunned but she went to make some coffee which she think it is. the uncle, who was holding some coins in his hands, was shocked to find out tt it cost $4.50. i think he mistook starbucks for wang jiao which is just next door.

i read alot into tiny details. dunno how to continue alr. going to drown myself with work again. too much free time would do me no gd.

seems like just ystday

dear blog,

yes, its been exactly 5mths since i last posted anything here. how time flies again. so many things have happened within this period of time. i wonder if this will be another year to forget. its probably one of the lowest point that made me wanna come back and write something. i'm almost filled to the brim.

holidays is here. i've gotta work hard. but a mixture of emptiness, loneliness, worries, nostalgia is stopping me from getting anything done. mind and heart not working as one. i'll get over this soon, at least i hope. when u tot u're almost there and all of a sudden u're left behind. its abit hard to swallow. disappointment too great for me to handle it alone. tried to let my feelings be known, but everytime it comes out in words, i screw up. i'm not prepared to give up but i dunno wat i should do next. vicious cycle they say. memories clings.

goodbye my lover.