dear blog,

yes, its been exactly 5mths since i last posted anything here. how time flies again. so many things have happened within this period of time. i wonder if this will be another year to forget. its probably one of the lowest point that made me wanna come back and write something. i'm almost filled to the brim.

holidays is here. i've gotta work hard. but a mixture of emptiness, loneliness, worries, nostalgia is stopping me from getting anything done. mind and heart not working as one. i'll get over this soon, at least i hope. when u tot u're almost there and all of a sudden u're left behind. its abit hard to swallow. disappointment too great for me to handle it alone. tried to let my feelings be known, but everytime it comes out in words, i screw up. i'm not prepared to give up but i dunno wat i should do next. vicious cycle they say. memories clings.

goodbye my lover.