ystday was lantern festival, wat does it mean to u ?? it sure doesnt mean as much to me anymore . . . not as much as before when things werent the same as now. when things are going well... everything is beautiful ...

remember the candles, remember the words... remember tt person ... at tt v right moment.

no double for anything . . .

sometimes it is gd to just take urself out of this world , daze n indulge in the excessiveness of the past. the past few late nights has prob given me the chance to do so. it's not the best feeling in the world but it juz feels gd to be doing nth, juz slouch on the couch n think.

i took a long long journey back . . . back to when i was young , a real addict of cartoons. back to primary sch days, the kid that always gets into trouble. back to the first day in bp, my first meeting on v'day with yilin (with complications) , my first few recesses with yuhao awkwardly, my first bp soccer jersey, the cheering com , the first day of sec 2 eagerly awaiting the new batch of sec 1s, the first time i saw her at the bus interchange n the days, the wearing of long pants to sch , provoking my girl next door sherelynn daily, being a "detective" with oon they all , lam soon challenge and even the takin of bus 190. a long long list of how everything n everyone took their place in my life. certain things that use to be so "big" then , has slowly lost its significance now. things change ever so quickly.

it isnt the most perfect , but i think its also wat tt makes my life the way it is. people n events shaped my life , n probably to a certain extent , they still do. looking back this way , is juz like another of tiger's lesson history. u learn wat was done, wat could be done n wat should have been done. given a chance alot of things wont be done the way it is n certain things wont be allowed to happen but this is IF given a chance . . .

anyway i'm back into the matrix of reality , the ominous forthcoming of the promos ... sets me back on my revision again. hoping the next time i look back , this period of time would be categorised under "well done".

think is powerful word . . .

teachers' day , the night before some of them came over to my place to stay n play mahjong over night which was so energy sapping! yishin was as cocky as ever, but its fun to have them staying over. then morning went back TOO early for the teacher's day concert. it was boring , with a capital B. din really look for any teachers also, hmmm, mayb i wasn't really there for teacher's day ??

anyway after tt we went lamsoon, it was sorching hot. the last time i played in such heat was like almost 10-11 mths ago! how times flies ah ? got an unfamiliar feeling to this court already but memories still poured in. we ending the challenge ard 1+ , eat lunch, loiter at lot 1 n went hy house. --mayb i'm not meant to see those things myself, up till now, not even once have i witnessed it . but i guess its good too.

ystday i had a forum in sch. as usual , aj ppl always complaining bout our muggerified culture. is tt our fault to blame ? dun really care wat other ppl think anyway, its the mindset which need to be changed of them not ours. i always wondered if RJC has our uniform, would anyone say its ugly ?? hahaz, dun think so right ? but thats not the main point, my principal said about how other sch has such high sch spirit , every now and then breaking in cheers , and everytime they have any sch event , the cheers comes about unlike my sch now.

bp came in my mind, suddenly felt a sense of pride inside me. i think we truely have our own spirit there. our v own noisy, whacky but ever so morale boosting BP cheer, the "YOz check it out" tt will get the whole sch cheering in unison( the kind of feeling tt sends ur adrenalin pumping ever so high ). it wasn't coincidental tt we practically cheered tt cheer after wateva things we had, even after assembly in the hall ! right soonkeng ?? haha... it brought back all the times we got into trouble with the over doing of the cheer. but because we love it ... tts our culture. our own bp spirit. which, sadly, something aj does lack now.