a long overdue post... anyway, gotten back part of prelims result. haha... tt was a laugh of guilt , disappointment and anxiety. EE for maths n chem. kinda omg for me ... and to think my physics currently at a B (without paper 3) could be my best sub. results doesnt tally with effort. i've gotten the scare i needed, now to work on them. NO GAMING and less tv, probably less online time as well. i will find the form that spurred me on last yr. every other thing out of my mind now... A's, the holy grail.

the difference between pure genius and stupidity. there's limit to one's intelligence but stupidity knows no limit.

looking forward to bbq this sat. the last bbq we had was like last yr ?? pretty long ago. our bbq has always been fun n i'm sure this time it will be no exception. we tried to get every one to bring girls along but apparently the idea is not v feasible. awkward situations are foreseen. so i guess it'll be a guys night out once more, with lotsa fun of cos.

i juz cant seems to let go of certain things even after so long. dwelling onto something tts foregone doesnt do me any good n it sure sux. i think u've found ur mr sept and i wish tt u'll be happy . . . i juz hope our conclusion could be a little better than it was. tts probably one of the regrets i have. ur impt exams is coming, good luck. all the best . . .

Hey,
My prelims are half way down the road and in about 6 weeks time, i'll meet the giant A's! Its now half time so i'm taking a not so deserved break. I went to play soccer today with bgang. Expected, the turnout was poor cos the other jc's ppl are either studying or nursing their injured knees! Nonetheless, for the sake of my deprived poly friends, we just made do with 10 people and played under the scorching sun. All work no play makes jack a dull boy. damn, my body is taking the toll from my exercise-less lifestyle, late night sleeps and all the junkies food. All the aches are released right at this very moment. Its a familiar feeling for me though, to feel all the aches and stuffs. I miss soccer training, matches and the dinner dates. i remember how i always loved to rush back home, take a bath and hopped into bed. Its one of the nicest feeling ever! That instant, all the pain seems to be gone. try it!

i did my physics paper 1 & 2 on thurs. I have to say its to my relief that the paper is manageable. i even "completed" way before the time is up. thats some accomplishment. The past few struggles with the physics paper always ended up with me trying to squeeze in whatever crap i could think of to fill up the lines up till the final second. I started to do what i used to do to kill time during exams in the past. I held my breath for as long as i could repeatedly. It made me realised how long i have not played with this breath holding thing. I came up with this breath holding during primary school days when i'll always have about 1hr to kill. nowadays, if you have 1hr to kill, you're either godlike or in deep shit. Its a very effective way to kill time. you'll be surprised how time flies when you're playing this. try it !

'did u know tt it is easier to say what you want by writing it in a diary than saying it to someone in the face? but do u know tt it has more value when u say it to their face?'

-what would you do ?

i haven been studying hard when i should. i cant really be bothered at times. i know this is bad. ya, i keep hearing this. ahhh , i need a poor poor prelim to whack me straight up. gogogo ??

steve irwin passed away. i respect environmentalist like him. i wish i can be one like him. they do not get paid alot for wat they do, but they do it with such passion tt will probably put lotsa others to shame. he always say " ooh, this is a beauty " no matter how ugly the snake or the reptile he'd picked up. its the kind of passion n drive that really makes one's life fulfilling. i'm a keen viewer of discovery, national geog and animal planet and so i see steve irwin rather often. its sad, tt his shows will probably be stopped. but he died doing things he love doing which he wont regret doing. salute~

my friend said, thinking back, he cant think of nice things bout ajc. his 3 years (retained) was tainted with unpleasant memories. a major part of mine was too but every period of life has lesson to be learnt and memories to be cherished. a seemingly downpoint could potentially be the catalyst to propel one to future success. and amidst all the painful memories there will be tiny little things tt we initially didnt notice, that is worth treasuring. half filled ? or half empty ? its up to you to choose.

watching it all slip as i stood rooted not knowing wat i should or could do . . .