i reached home rather early today, back into an empty house. my heart was alot emptier in a sense. having nth to do does not make things any better. i sat staring at the com screen for nearly an hour, not wanting to move nor think. the old familiar music brought back images of the past. and there i was, allowing myself to sink further and further into this trance as the music plays on. the yearning for a voice, a soul mate came stronger than ever today. it just had to be your doings.

i lied when i wished you all the best,
cos i cant.
i swear i wont cry . . .