hey!

been almost a month since i last wrote. everything's finally coming to a conclusion at last. juz 1 last week and it'll be over. i juz got a feeling i wont be as excited as i am expected to after the exams. nonetheless, a break from studies for 2 yrs is greatly welcomed. watching the occupied soccer courts on my way home juz reminded me how much i've missed it. cant wait for the weekly sessions to resume. i'll definitely be going back for soccer trainings as well. hopefully aj will do much better next yr.

juz finished maths paper today... aww, 12 long years of maths journey and it has ended alr. *sob sob. i will miss maths too. ha... i notice the same thing happening day in day out. ppl coming out of the exam hall will be busy " @%$#@$%^@#$% " over exams questions. they will ask each other " so hows the paper ?" and the reply always came back "okok lo". i dun discuss my papers after i've done it but when ppl ask me how did i do, i'll reply the same way as the others. i juz wonder if i could give a more elaborate ans. no matter how well i felt i did, there's always this "obligation" to juz replied okok or not bad. mayb it is to prevent ppl from misinterepreting it as arrogance.

this time round for maths, i felt i did pretty well, probably well enough to warrant an A. quiet confidence they say. but at the same time there's this sense of insecurity tt is overwhelming the confidence. ironic, no doubt. however, in retrospect, i felt i did well for prelims too, only to be hit right smack in the face with an E. tt was a great fall considering i was aiming for B. so i do not really know which feeling to trust. one thing for sure, this feeling will go away when the dust settles. i'll be peeking at my result slip next yr like a guy playing black jack, holding a King and praying for the pointed end of the ace to appear. hopefully my hard work will be justified. my messy room will be a testament to that.

tts all for now..