hey,

like i've said, the weekdays are really flying past faster than speed of light. has the no. of hours per day shorten ?? i'm getting off at a really slow pace and i dun have a good feeling bout the outcome. gosh, wat worse is i'm feeling the urgency n yet not enough fuel to power forward like an old engine. vroom... *cough cough* ... vroom. i'm worried bout my gp.

i got this feeling i'm competing in the tour de france. at the begining i've got all the people ard me, taking turns to brave the drag force at the front of the pack. slowly slowly, some of them fell off their bike and subsequently, out of the race. during the last stretch, i'm all alone to speed down the hills, to claim the yellow jersey. but then, i've no body to share my joy at the finish. i'm all alone. there's nv a 2 person race anyway. there's always only a winner.

i went to play for yishin's blue devil ystday. the truth is , i kinda sucked. yishin asked why i looked more devastated than him after the game. i told him i'm tired. actually i am la , but i felt i could have put in tt little bit more effort really. if its my competition game, i would have threw myself at the ball, but i just didnt felt quite the need for it. until at the end, watching him struggle to conceal his disappointment with a smile. i should have upped my game alittle just even for tt 10 mins. mayb it wont make a difference to the score but at least i know i've play my best for a friend. mayb the combination of chelsea and man utd as team name was a bad omen to start with. ha... well, if u want to enjoy this sat, u have better get ur passion burning again. its now like a flame in swaying winds...

hope you're doing fine ... n i hope i've finally got it.