* Ted, was a 60 years old man who, had everything from career to status to wealth in life, but he had nothing in his love life. It was not because he wasn't charming enough back then. it was rather he could not get over the high school love of his. At the dying moments of his life, he recalled the times .... *

It all began decades ago. I saw this girl on my way to school. It was the first time I saw her, n she melts my heart at that very instant. She has such gorgeous features, black silky hair , flawless complexion, sweet smile , cute little dimple n a pair of the most beautiful eyes God created. She was like a fairy in the middle of all the mortals. I was glancing over at her in the subway, n everytime our eyes meet... I froze. I could feel my face turn red, literally.


She was by the far the most charismatic lady in Abraham lincoln high school where i was studying at. We weren't close, but at least we knew each other existed. Seeing her in school everyday sends my adrenalin pumping high, makes my heart skip a beat, n leaves me trailing in the wake of her backview. If her life was a play , I was only the redundant backstage crew. She never did know how I felt for her.


Then, came a twist. She came up to me one day "Hey ted, was it you at the subway i saw this morning ? " I might have appeared cool n calm but underneath, I was going beserked with joy. it was simple line but at least that shows she noticed me. Slowly things started to get better as we started interacting more often and grew closer. Of course, I fell deeper in love with her ~


I had this flame of hope burning inside me, wishing to be with her. I wonder does she feels likewise ? Doubt so... I reminded myself, maybe I shouldn't be greedy, from total strangers to where we are now, I should be contented. Still, I tried to drop hints everytime I had a chance, I don't know if she got it. (an idiot would have gotten it , those were obvious hints)


Then came out of nowhere the sucker punch when she asked me one night " if I were to have a boyfriend, would u treat me just as nice ? " I didn't have time to response or control my tears, it just flowed. My whole world collapsed on me... I told her " I will ~ " it wasn't a lie yet it hurts. Cant bear the thought of her in another guy's arm. A few weeks later , she sets off for Europe. Things changed since her return, we drifted apart. We were never like before again ...


she seems to be leading a happy life. I can only look at her from afar, trying hard every morning
to catch the same train as her at the subway, catch glimpses of her during tea time. A smile from her would sent my heart racing fast, but I know she's out of my reach. I've seen her out before with the "homosapian", she looked really blessed with love. Some nights I would look into the glittering sky, pray to God, thinking of my angel. Each time, the stars flickled as though they knew what I was going through... (adapted "My Angel, without wings " by George k korver )


To Be Continued ...